Happy New year

I LOVE YOU TILL THE END. . .

you've given me an amazing 2009...
full of love, joy, excitement, thrill and happiness...
THANK YOU THANK YOU MY LOVE!

TODAY. . .

LAST DAY

I never ask for it to be over..
but then again, I never asked for it to begun.
that's the way it is with Life..

Some of the most beautiful days come,
completely by chance..

but even the most beautiful days,
have their sunset...


Today I wanna Cry. and scream out loud.
to Let go of this pain in my Heart..

The moment i get out of your car,
the last time i kissed you,
the last hug and the last stare i gave you..
it will always remain in my heart.

and what happen today was the most memorable
and wonderful moment loving you..

i love you today, yesterday and forever.

HURT

“The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.”

GOODBYE IS NOT THE END..

it's gonna be hard when the person
im holding on for me to keep standing will be gone anytime soon..
it's like im be stuck in the dark trying to find a light.

I'm looking forward to the day that our road will cross again.
I cant wait for the day that i will see you again.
maybe months or years from now.
i hope the communication and the bond between us is still there.

I just wanna thank you for everything. you've given me.
thank you so much for loving me the way i am.
ur the only one who know's me well and thank u for always
understanding me and accepting my imperfections.
even if hurt you, thank you for not giving up on me till the very last time..

Like what the song said..
"sometimes goodbye is not forever and letting go is one way of saying
i'll always love you.."

today

was amazing.

AWAY

10/06/09 8:56 AM

I'm looking through the window outside.
wondering if your thinking of me too.
people keep walking and passing by
but my eyes were searching for you.
longing to see that smile in your face.

I hear noises from outside,
people ranting and talking non-stop
but the only thing my ears were longing for
was your sweet sexy voice that wakens up my spirit,
the sound of your laugh that brightens up my day.

I wanna hear you whisper into my ears the words
" i love you honey.."
I wanna look into your meaningful eyes and stare at it
while forgetting everything outside.

with your gaze and your voice
I start to build my own world with you while
leaving every thing behind..

-FM
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HONEY...

ALL ABOUT HIM

i miss my boyfriend..
i wanna see him.
i wanna be with him.
i wanna touch him, hug him and feel his kisses.
i wanna sleep with him and dream with tonight.

does he miss me too?
like the way i miss
him right now.

is he thinking of me too?
like how i think of him tonight.

I love him
i love my boyfriend.
i love my man.

he's everything i want and makes me happy.
only him.

I'm still awake.
i couldn't sleep and it makes me miss him more.
i wanna be with him.
now. always. forever.


I love him so much!

TOGETHER AS ONE

"11-03-09 7:15"

a day i would never forget in my whole life.
No words can explain the feelings i felt.

i will always reminisce and look back to that moment..

i love you more and more....

I NEED YOU TO FIND ME

Tonight,
I'm lost. As lost as every other soul in this world
I really have to find myself in my own mess.

I'm lost. I can't seem to find the answers to any of my questions.
I keep running back to where I left off.
I can't seem to find balance, something always topples me off to the edge.
Reason always seems to question my mind.
Reason never makes sense.

I tried to quit on you.
to leave you. to stop this.
But i guess, I think, I know
I'm lost. I am not sure why I'm like this to you.
I find it hard to believe in my own words.

But here I am now, finding my way back to you.
I can't let you go.
I'm sorry.

MESS

we always mess up with each other head's.
we find it funny and irritating at times.

today,
i hurt you 'cause of this bad moods i have.
and it hurts me too..

we argue. we fight.
we ignore each other.

as i sat i the front seat of your car.
looking out of the window.
watching other people's car.
people outside. walking in the rain.

and you driving.
your eyes were looking straight ahead the road.
not giving me a glance.
your hands were on the steering wheel.
not holding my hands.
your mouth is shut.
and not talking to me.

you drop me off.
without looking at each other.
without hugging each other.
without kissing each other good bye.


you said "take care"
instead of "iloveyou"

and i said "thanks"
instead "iloveyou too"


this day.. was a mess for me.
:(

SEVEN

"'I love you' means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else.

It means that I do not expect perfection from you- just as you do not expect it from me.

It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times.

It means loving you when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do.

It means loving you when you're down-not just when you're fun to be with.

'I love you' means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them-asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine.

It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go.

It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.."

I LOVE YOU HONEY.
Thank you for making my past seven months the best ever!

i miss..

i miss feeling of the air in the ocean.
i miss the warm breeze.
the cold air.
the sand.
the water.

your hands to mine while walking.
and your lips to mine.

i miss you...

MY LOVE

another day for us is over. but my love for you will never ends.

i love you so much more than you could imagine..

WHY???

why i feel like this?
is it because your far away from me?
is it because your not here with me?

why do i have this fear??

i'm confuse.
and it's killin me.

HALF YEAR

you taught me how to express myself as a true woman.
You taught me everything I know about loving someone.
You molded me into something rare and beautiful.
u and only you have given me so much hope and have made me realize how much I want you!
You show the true meaning of how a man should treat a woman.

When you touch my body, my heart seems to explode and this is why I love you.
I could kiss you a thousand times and still not be satisfied.
my love for you is endless, so tender, so hot and complete.
I swear to God I want you in my life.
I love you more and more with each day passing..

"Love can make you do things that you never thought possible.. "

i love you so much..

SECRET LOVE

"My love glows like a thousand candles
but I have to keep it in the dark"


-I wish I could scream to the world what I feel
and for who I feel it .

ILY so much but so so much honey.

WHY I CAN'T WRITE FOR YOU....?

my clock says it's 2:45AM to be exact.
i cant sleep obviously, guess to much coffee.
and too much caffeine.
and as what i expected
it's you who keeps running on my mind.

I am here reading your emails.
poems and nice words you've send me.
i cant believe my inbox is more than a hundred messages already.

And now i'm here at our blog,
reading all my previous post for the past months we've been together.

I look back on your poems.
and look back on those post i wrote here.
it's all pretty good words and i can't believe it's
all from my magic hands.
and then i wonder..

WHY i can't write a poem for you?
i love to write down my feelings.
but seriously, whenever i tried to write something for you.
i can start it but out of a blue moon, i wont be able to finish it.

weird huh. it's not that you don't inspire me.
but maybe your poems was way too good
to compare if i make one for you...
yours was something incomparable.
one of a kind.
deep words but easy to understand with deep meaning.
how can u do that honey?

ONE DAY, i will.
i have to..
i don't know when. i don't know how.

but i will. i promise...

I'M NOT READY TO LOSE CONTROL

Being in a roller coaster is like falling - head first - madly in love.
Once you're there, you lose sense of what's right and wrong.
You lose your mind.
You have no say in anything anymore.
All you can do is get ridiculously scared for your own fate, and hope that the ride wouldn't be as bad as most people say it would be...

You can't do anything when you get thrown into this annoying circle of excitement and fear.
You have no control over how fast you are going.
You just have to break all the ties.
You just have to allow yourself to have fun and get hurt...

And I am scared of roller coasters
because I am not ready to break all the barriers yet.

I am not ready to lose my mind.
I'm not ready to hand my fate over to the endless cycle of happiness with you..
I am not yet ready to lose every piece of my heart.
I'm not ready to get broken down.


I am not ready to lose you.
just because I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH....

THE FIRST TIME WE MET

It's when you hold eye contact for that second too long or maybe the way you laugh.
It sets off a flash and our memories take a picture of who we are at that point when we first know

"This is love."


ILY so much honey...

I GOT A FEELING..

"that tonight's gonna be a good good night..."



-I KNEW IT.
last day of the month was always the best.

ONE MORE DAY..

All I can do, if I feel this way,

is trust that somewhere in the universe, there's a you that feels the same.

ONE MORE DAY.
Finally, you'll be back.
i cant wait to see you...

TEXT ME COZ..

TONIGHT

Tonight,
I'm alone in this dark four walls.
lights off. laying under this warm blanket.
with my eyes open.
with thoughts of you in my mind.

If only i could close my eyes and sleep immediately
that way i don't need to bear with this loneliness
and the feeling of longing for you so bad..
i miss you so much. :(

please come back SOON....

5TH LOVE BDAY

your THERE.
and
i am HERE.
although were apart today,
my love for you will be stronger than ever.

so i wanna say..
THANK YOU..
for the love
care.
sweetness.
protection.
comfort.
honesty.

thanks for the..
fights.
tears.
problems.


for your..
kisses.
warm hugs.
touch.

for always..
telling me the right thing to do in life.
for teaching me what you know.

for being with me when i need you..
when i want you
when i miss you..

i love you so much..
thanks for being with me.

TIME without YOU

you once told me that our greatest enemy is
"TIME"
we always think that time goes by so fast whenever were together.
it seems like it's not enough for us to spend time with each other.
and slow when were not together.
because of the eagerness we have to be together once again.

but now here i am,
wishing TIME would be running way too fast
without realizing that today and yesterday
has already been past.

two days and two nights.
and i am trying to resist this terrible feeling
of missing you.
it's hard and i don't know how to deal with it.
it's not easy knowing that your far away from me.

one more week without you.
how am i supposed to live my everyday life without
seeing you.
i want to talk to you.
laugh with you.
hold hands with you..

i'm counting the days 'till you come back to me.
i miss you honey..

MY SUMMER CANDY

"You're so fine, I want you mine, you're so delicious
I think about you all the time, you're so addictive
Don't you know what I can do to make you feel alright. "


my summer's favorite lollipop.
i always crave for this candy!
i want more....



LOVES




:)

DO U KNOW THAT...

A PRAYER

Dear God,

tonight, here i am writing my prayers to you.
wishing you can hear my thoughts.

i pray and i wish that one day you'll give us
a place where we can spread our love for each other.
a place where nobody knows and care about us.
no worries. no doubts.

i'm hoping to be in that place someday,
where i can feel the "FREEDOM to LOVE him."

just ME and HIM.
just US.

A MSG FROM YOU

"When the night comes my sadness take place on my heart knowing it's another night we are apart..I just have hope one day our hearts,bodies n souls will discover how awesome would be to spend one day n night to get all we have to give to each other..
I love u n I need u in my life my greatest love 4 ever.. "

-a message from my love.
06.05.09 9:05pm via myspace‏

i found this on my inbox. and it made me smile.
now i can go to sleep while remembering every single words you said.
i love you more and more honey.

4TH LOVE BDAY

Probably you won't read this
in the next couple of days,
maybe weeks or months even.

But that precisely makes this wonderful.
That regardless of the exactness of time,
This Blog will be here discreetly reminding you
of your importance in my life,
and the story of our love.

I couldn't keep my face not to smile this day
i couldn't hide how much love I have for you
every kiss I have with you feels like first
And i cant deny that my love for you is overflowing
And I hope this day would be mean so much to you.

I’ve never been love-crazy before,
and to be honest, I always thought
people who acted like they were
must be exaggerating a bit.
But that was before you came into my life.

you taught me everything about LOVE.
i love you so much.
thank you for everything.

HAPPY FOURTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

ANOTHER CHANCE

-If even a day should go by when i don't say I love you..
may never a moment go by without you knowing that i do..-


" Forgiveness in a relationship of love is essential. We all make mistakes and we must make amends and fix the relationship. There is a certain sadness in breaking the illusion of the perfect relationship. However, for those that pass the hurdle of forgiveness, they will find that their relationship is stronger and more meaningful than ever before. " -ANONYMOUS


even if we argue.
even if sometimes i'm not fair with you.
even if i make you feel neglected.
my love for you will never changed.

I'm sorry for hurting you...
and THANK YOU for forgiving me..
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART HONEY..

DAY 112- TEARS GUILT AND PAIN

I wish the old days return.
I wish i can have that little heart ♥ which only cry for a doll or lollipop!

"JULY 12 2009" (TUESDAY)
-Rough day. No real reasons. Lots of little reasons. Don't really feel like engaging them all right now; my eyes are still puffy and sore.

I don't really know how I can be this girl one day and then crying under my blanket the next. But right now, it's where I am.
And so there's nothing to do but suck it.
I was fighting tears.
I hate succumbing.
I hate the way tears feel and how they leave me feeling for hours after.
I hate admitting that I don't know what else to do.

I need some personal space,
To get my mind straight..
Nobody else is living my life except myself.
I cry like a bitch when nobody’s around
It’s a pain I hide inside and so, I never make a sound
And i realize that even when you fall down you gotta learn how to crawl.

THE ONLY PROMISE

The word love has so many meanings like;
passion: makes it grow stronger
devotion: makes it last longer
laughs: makes it more enjoyable
touch: makes it more real
stare: makes it more true
smell: makes you crave for it
chills: lets you know how you feel
Just love and life will be more beautiful <3

hhhoneyyy,
thanks for αlwαys being there,
for always mαking me smile,
for tripping me into liking you,
for existing in my life,
for making it α thousαnd times better,
t h a n k y o u for being yourself.

i love you honey.
i'm not good in keeping promises.
but loving you is the only thing i could promise you
and i will never forget you.
believe it or not.
i'll risk everything to prove it to you my love..

ONE MORE KISS

“The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story.
It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender; because this kiss already has within it that surrender.
- Emil Ludwig quote


your wet lips.
your sweet saliva.
warmth of you breath.
the moves of your tongue to mine.
i'm getting addicted to it!
everytime i closed my eyes i cant forget your beautiful face
while your kissing me.
i can't resist the feeling of your deep kisses..
everytime we say goodbye..
i wish we had one more kiss.
you give me the taste of heaven with your long passionate kisses.
and you make me feel im the only girl alive on earth.

i love you..

LOVE IS A PASSION

"Love is Passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. Fall head over heels for someone you can love crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find this? Forget your head and listen to your heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense in living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love -- well, you havn't lived life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."
-Meet Joe Black (movie)

IRREVOCABLY IN LOVE WITH YOU

Whenever I’m with him, no matter how short the instance
or how irrelevant it all appears,
my world always finds a way to pause for a beautiful daydream.

Where everyone else, but "him and I" fades away.
And nothing else matters.
Every little thing recedes into the background,
and the whole world will patiently wait for us…

it's 2:13 am on my clock.
10 more hours and i will get to see him again.
my love. my man. my most amazing guy.

today is a new and a wonderful day for us.
i'm glad your back.
my heart stops beating while you were gone.

i love you with all my ♥.

-FM (07.07.09)

THIRD LOVE BDAY

♪ ♪ ♥ ♪ ♪
our love is like a music to my ear.

We sing love songs that is stuck in your head and never seems to disappear until you have stopped loving that person.

But with our music it never gets boring, never gets old.
It has new rhythms every time I see you.

it starts over every time I hear you.
And it repeats every time I think of you.

It’s something I’ve grown too.
Something that I adjusted to and I won’t ever leave it.
♪ ♪ ♥ ♪ ♪


HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY HONEY.
I LOVE YOU....

HOLDING ON

this mind, my heart, my life

calls for you.

Pacing against everything that’s wrong -

holding on, never letting go.

honey,

im not sure if your still reading this.
i know this past few days has been crazy for us.
it's hard i know but im holding on to this feelin that i dont want to let go.
time can only tell when and how we'll end this.
but for now, just hold on.
for me. for us. please.

i Love you.

-FM (06.15.09)

SEASONS OF LOVE

No matter what season of the year we are.
or what part of the world we could be,
my love for you is still as strong as the first day i told you that
"i love you..."

AIR

"if only the air could talk.
you would hear the word "i love you.."
every time the breeze touch your face.
cause as far as the air spreads himself
that's how big my love is for you.."

-from the poem of the man i love.
thanks honey i love you!

-FM 06.02.09-

DEEPLY IN LOVE

I love to feel your arms wrap around me and always have you near.
i love your soft and gentle kisses.
I love to express my deepest thoughts and share a laugh or tear.
I love the way you touch me and every look and smile you save for me.

My honey bunny, I want to tell you once again.
I love everything in you.

I am crazy about you honey. I'm crazy about your kiss that always leads me to a place of forgetfulness. It makes me forget the rest of the existence...it is just you and me I see...
just "YOU AND ME"...

-FM 06.01.09-

LOVING U MORE..

loving you was the reason of my happiness as of this moment.
I can say there is nothing more beautiful than having someone to love and the feeling of being loved in return.
I began to see the beauty of the world when we got together,
that there is so much in life unless if we stop hoping and there is so much in love unless we stop loving.
As time passed by... i started to wish and hope that I can keep you forever.
Don't you know that you are someone worth keeping,
someone worth caring and most of all someone worth loving?

i want you and I need you. I love you and I can never ask for more than you.
i will never forget when you stare at me and tell me how beautiful I am.
i will never forget ur touch and your kisses.
i will never forget those times when u sang love songs to me and when you whisper
“I love you” to my ears.
i can never forget when your eyes met mine and tell me how much we love each other.

I like the way you laugh. I like the way you smile and how handsome you are with ur black/blue shirts.
every moment spent with you was worth remembering.
those memories will always stay in my heart.
I never felt truly happy in my life.
I know I will never love someone as much as I love you.
honey, you are the love of my life and I will cherish you for as long as I live.


-today has been a wonderful day for us.
thank you for driving me around the ocean. i love it.
i had a great great time with you.
it's a blast! looking forward for more. :)

-FM 05.27.09-

2ND LOVE BDAY

today is our second romantic birthday.
2 months feels 2 years! :)
so here's a short poem i found on the net
which exactly fits us..

for my honey bunny:

"You sweep a spell across my heart, like a breeze across the sea,
And you fill my world with beautiful dreams & feelings meant to be.
The way you live, the way you love and even so much more,
With every smile that you give, you're all I could ask for.

You are in every breath I take and in every tear I cry,
You're in every star I wish upon up in the lonely sky.
Every day with you is heaven, like an angel from above,
A million magic moments sent- to give you all my love.
You are living proof that prayers and dreams really do come true,
And I thank God for that special day he blessed my heart with you..
I Love you "

-FM 03.24.09

FORBIDDEN LOVE

its getting harder each time to control my desire to see you,
besides all the risks we take.
I don't know what you do, to capture me like this.
Sometimes i'm scared to give in, because I cant get you off my mind and thinking about every delicious part you, even when we are in dangerous places, filled with people.

The impossibility of seeing you every time I would like to,
just gives me more desire, just makes the clock seem like its slower,
just makes this ‘missing you’ in an intense desire for you, that each minute is more difficult to control.

Honey, we need to discover a formula in which I could see you regularly, because this desire is almost uncontrollable and this way, i'm going to go crazy!

OCEAN OF LOVE

Hold closer, closer, capture it all -
Seashell treasures keep memories;
Waves of the night lost in the sea.
Deep true endless romances of the waters, are cherished lovingly on shore.
Graceful perfection, sea breeze air
Silent kisses, stars keep smiles.

i love him as much as the tidal waves of the ocean breeze.
i love him as much as the sand in the beach.


the ocean is one of the witness of our undying and firing love for each other.
i love you honey..

31st day is the FIRST

"and his cold marble lips pressed very softly against mine.. "

It happened that day
It was my first kiss
It made my heart sway
And brought final bliss
Like lemons and limes
Sweet against my lips
My heart races and climbs
While its numb at my fingertips.

-How was my first kiss?
It was good indeed
All i said was this
"Thats all i'll ever need"

and it makes me realize that i am truly HEAD OVER HEELS INLOVE.
i LOVE him. ONLY YOU honey bunny. :)