Learnings lead to happiness...

for years, I have kept my feelings about you bottled up.
for fear that people will judge me or that they might judge you,
and the kind of relationship we share.

And today, I finally realized that it’s time for me to put everything
that concerns us aside. Leave it in the past, with no regrets.
that I shouldn’t be so afraid of opening my heart anymore
because some people might actually care about what I have to say and what I have to offer.

and that I should stop having such high expectations because the world will never be as perfect as how i thought it would be.

I need to stop hanging on to every single word that has been said..
I need to learn to let go all of the hurt I felt for all the broken promises that have made.
and I need to learn to be happy and thankful for everything I have even without you.

and most importantly,

I need to learn to be happy without working so hard for it, and without trying to find love from every single corner I see just so I can fill up the emptiness I once have.

Thanks for the memories

so true...

Moving on....

"why waste your time getting hurt, when there's someone else out there waiting to make you happy...."

GoodBYE

The one thing I hate the most is saying GOODBYE. It’s never been easy for me. I mean, how do you approach the concept of goodbye? Goodbyes are all different. Some are for a day, some are for a month. But others are forever. And the concept of forever is hard to accept. It’s like hey, I’m never going to see you again, goodbye. It doesn’t feel complete. But I think that’s what goodbyes are. They’re incomplete and you honestly don’t know how long the goodbye will last. It’s a part of life.

-At some point

you will realize that you have done too much, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

My most beautiful mistake

"It turns out that sometimes you have to do the wrong thing. Sometimes you have to make a mistake to figure out how to make things right. Mistakes are painful, but they are the only way to figure out who you really are and what you deserve."

Own hero

Sometimes you have to stop waiting for someone to come along and fix whats wrong.
Maybe you have to stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize that no one else has the answer.

Sometimes, you have to be your own hero.

Staying In love...

Staying in love. Sometimes, staying in love is one of the hardest things to do. Especially when you’ve been a couple for a really long time now. Sometimes, the “spark” doesn’t stay that long. It just goes away. What do we mean by “staying” in love? It’s when two people still love each other like it’s their first day as lovers. This is the secret of long-term couples. Those whom we can say that they’ll grow old together. These are the people who know when to swallow their pride for the one they love. Staying in love is one thing that you should protect, because once it starts to fade, it’s hard to bring the sparks back.

-ONE DAY

it's enough to drive me mad, how much i miss you.♥

This is crazy
i really fucking miss you.
Like i need to be with you and see your face,
that lips i’ve memorized so well,
running my hands through your hair,
your wonderful laugh, and your smile so sweet and naughty.

I hate nights like this,
because I don't have any choice.
And all i can do is just hold onto these little details
and pretend to be with you…

i love you so much.
I love you more.

I can’t give you up

It's hard and it hurts when we fight and argue for no reason.
It's ever harder when it's not the right moment to argue.
When we both know that, that little time we spend texting and talking
is the only time we have.
But i guess our relationship could never be smoothly perfect at all.

And, you know what?
I don’t care how far you are from me, or how long it has been since we talked.
I don’t care how mad I got at you, or how mad you’ve been at me. you’re still what matters most to me. and I can’t give that up. I love you so much.

Day 4: of missing you

I dont need anything. Bt you and me..
cause in your company, I feel so happy and complete.

I ♥ u I need u

tonight and for the rest of my life!

Day 3: of missing you

When you are so far away, I missed you even more.
Another night. Here I am sitting in my bed.
Thinking of you. Reading my past emails.
Looking for pictures that I could post here in this blog,
SO it reminds me of you and me.

It's been like this for the past couple of days.
And it seems like the more I miss you,
the more i feel that I'm getting stuck
in counting the days, and waiting for the time to pass by quickly.

It drives me crazy how much I miss you.
Not talking to you and hearing your voice make me feel
that I've been literally naked.

I hate it but at the same time Im loving it.
Weird combination to explain but it's true.

I hate it because It's hard.
I love it because it made me strong.

I dont know when are you gonna be able to read this.
But i hope thru this, You will realize how many nights and days
I've been missing you. and waiting for you.

I love you so much... always and forever...

Day 2 of missing you...

Day 2 is almost over. BUt here I am still awake thinking of
you and missing you so bad. I wish days could get way faster
that would benefit both of us.

I miss talking to you for hours.
I miss your voice.
I miss you so much.....

I can't wait for you. I long for you so bad...
Can you just be with me tonight? please?

everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life.

“I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I’ve ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours.”

Nicholas Sparks (THE NOTEBOOK)

While I sleep, I dream of you

“‎While I sleep, I dream of you, and when I wake, I long to hold you in my arms. If anything, our time apart has only made me more certain that I want to spend my nights by your side, and my days with your heart.”

Nicholas Sparks (NIGHTS IN RODANTHE)

Even if I had one hundred reasons to leave you,

I’d still look for that one reason to fight for you.
i love you more than anything in this world.

you and i collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

Missing someone is a part of loving them.

If you’re never apart, you’ll never really know how strong your love is.

My miracle. My fairytale.

After all that’s said and done, I still think you’re amazing.
I still cherish every moment I ever spent talking with you
and every smile you brought to my face.

I’ll forever be thankful that someone like you was brought into my life,
even if one day we know, it had to be taken away.
But see, you were my miracle, you were my fairytale
I ever got to live. Forever.

I love you honey!

The countdown begins today.

June 01 2011.
3 months.
92 days.

and...

HERE WE GO AGAIN! seeyousoon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

Its you

You’ve driven me crazy since the very beginning up until now.
And now, I don’t think I could do anything right without thinking about you.
I really can’t tell you what you do to me.
And what you do for me.

Despite the distance. The time difference.
You still drive me crazy after all this time and you know, I kinda like it.
Oh no! Scratch that. I actually love it.

It’s in every little thing you do. Every word you say. Every move you make.
You have me falling for you more and more everyday.

And it’s not something I have any control over.
Because slowly but surely, you’re stealing my heart, my soul, my body.
And I wont have any doubt to give it to you.
Because in the first place, It"s already yours, since the day I met you.

I love you so much....

it’s crazy the way you make me feel

I smile when I hear your voice.
and my heart beats just a little bit faster.

When you touch me, I get butterflies and all I can focus on is you.
If this isn’t love; then what is? Because it’s crazy the way you make me feel ♥

When I can’t get what I want,

I get even hornier.
It’s the worst feeling in the world

Having a limit, having these restrictions;
they make it harder for us, but at the same time, definitely more fun.

You have absolutely no idea how much I think about you naked.
No idea how much I want you going down on me.
No idea how much it sucks to want you when I’m here
and you’re there and we can’t have each other right now.

our love is so strong

that nothing could ever break it apart.

If I tell you how much you mean to me, or how much I love you, I’ll never get a chance to finish, because..

definitely true!

♥ 26 months♥

i’m sorry that I met you and fell head over heels for the most amazing man i ever met.
I’m sorry that with you, I have found a love so strong and so true
Im sorry that your absence can be felt ,no matter how long it’s been since we last saw each other or talk to each other..

Your absence is no doubt felt in everything I do, my love.
And I'm sorry that I miss you every second you are gone..
that sometimes makes you feel bad that i felt that way.

I live my everyday life without you here with me,and I survive but it feels like something is always missing
Because you are that that person that makes me whole and I am lucky and so blessed to found you.


I get sad and cry at times your isn’t here, at times when we miss each other so much but we cannot do anything but wait till the next day to talk.
There are times I choose to keep things to myself,
Just to keep everything runs smoothly.
But this is what our blog is for,to tell you things i failed to let you know
every time we talk.

Honey, I’m sorry that I love you SO much and I love you so deep .
And because of this love I have for you , it makes me crave for your presence,
Crave for your touch, your voice, your smell, your hugs and your kisses,

even though this relationship is too risky to keep going,
but still both of us never give up.
And it may seems stupid almost, for always wanting to be together,
and that we’re still doing it and we’re still committed to this love.

but you know what?
I’m proud of that love. And I will always be proud.
Forever. No matter what.

I love you so much. And I want you to know that i will be forever
thankful for making you a huge part of my life.
Happy 26 months to both of us my love!

i love falling asleep in your arms and waking up just the same.

I can't wait for this again. One of the Best mornings in my life that
i'm looking forward too. Very soon ... AGain. :)

something means a whole lot of everything if it’s WITH YOU

The hardest part is always wanting to be with each other.

But the only thing that makes it easier,
is using every alternative method there is to be together.
Phone calls,texts, emails.video chat.

Settling for what we have at the moment pays off in the end though.

It’s a test.

Seeing how much we really want to be together.

Whether we want to enough, to be patient
and deal with all the bullshit that happens before the next time we see each other,

I don’t want to this it as a waste of time. I don’t think you do either.
And it will never be. Never.

But until then, I’ll be happy with what we can have right now.
Because a little bit of something is better than a whole lot of nothing.

And a little bit of something means a whole lot of everything if it’s WITH YOU.

yes, you are.

I LOVE YOU

“It’s overused. It’s a cliché. It’s corny. It’s just a line. It’s illogical. It’s troublesome. It’s always too abrupt. It’s never on cue. It’s difficult to say. It will be held against you. It’s too bold. It’s often quite pathetic. It’s amazing how, after everything, I love you still works.”

undress me...

and together, we'll be LOST.....

i'm drooling right now....

Can you tell me how hard your batman is.
that you want me to be there with you now so i can touch it
and caress it so good...

Can you whisper in my ears with all the passion you have,
on how much you want to eat me and feel me.

God, I can feel my mouth watering at the thought of the waterfall of your tasty cum glazing my lips, flowing out my mouth...

It drowns me so good just thinking about it!



You’re frustrating me, cause you make me wanna crave all the time.
but I love it.
It makes me want you so much more.

best moments..

We could be in my Bed again.
Where you fall asleep and I’m awake .
Just looking at you sleeping at peace with me still in your hands
and how you’d pull me closer every time you moved .

i fell in love with you knowing that there was never any possibility of being with you.. forever... i miss you so much.. :(

never

you never stop loving someone
you learn to live without them...
and when they finally come back to you..
it's like they never left, and NOTHING changed...

This is for you.

the one person I can tell my soul to.
Who can listen to me like no other.
Who I can laugh with to no extent,
who I can cry to when times are tough,
who can help me with the problems of my life.

you never turned your back on me or told me I wasn’t good enough or let me down.
I don’t think you know what that means to me.

You have gone through so much pain because of me
and you still have time for me.
you still always make sure I am okay and not caring
of what you feel inside, just to make sure I am happy.
And I love you for listening to me even when inside you are dying and hurting.
And I look up to you because you are so strong and look life
positively...

I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, without you.
My only love
My man.
My best friend.

just having each other is more than enough

I don’t mind when our conversations get a little boring.
I don’t mind when we’re texting and we run out of things to say.
When we’re doing video-call but not doing anything,
well I don’t mind that either.

It doesn’t matter to me because I finally realized that..
when you’re truly in love, every moment spent together doesn’t have to be breath-taking, that you’ll still feel like ur the luckiest person alive
even through the most unexciting times,
and you will feel completely comfortable together
because you know that

"just having each other is more than enough"

ready for war

I used to think love wasn’t worth fighting for, but when I saw you I was ready for war.

it's us

Couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don’t let it take them down.. :) ♥

Because it’s crazy the way you make me feel

I smile when I hear you say "i love you"
and my heart beats just a little bit faster..

When you touch me, I get butterflies and all I can focus on is you.

If this isn’t love; then what is?

Because it’s crazy the way you make me feel :)

Im waiting

25th months.
2 years and a month today.
who would believe we would reach this far after everything
that happens in the past?

thought it's not what im expecting today.
I was waiting for you to greet me, but it's fine.
im happy were still together.
weather you forgot about today or not,
what matters is we still love each other more than ever.

Happy 25th Months my love.!

The longeryou stay, the harder it is to leave

Love is like standing on wet cement. The longeryou stay, the harder it is to leave. You can never let go with out leaving your footprints behind.

If love is true,

" pain is never a reason to let go..."

one day closer..

Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them,

"you are one day closer to the next time you will."