I don’t think anything I ever say is going to make up for how I feel. So I guess I’ll go with a ‘I’m sorry’ for feeling everything I shouldn’t have felt.

do u remember?

do you remember?
the cold feeling in your skin?
as cold as this delicious yogurt?
the feeling of cold that brings fire and heat in your body.
that makes you sweat and close your eyes,
call my name and realize your in HEAVEN :)

you remember? cause i DO! :)

merry xmas love ♥

"this christmas i'd rather have your PRESENCE than your presents.."

21 MONTHS ♥

21 MONTHS. full of joy, happiness, sadness, fights, anger, tears, madness, craziness, SEX :), and ofcourse love love and love. :) "

im so happy and thankful were still together and have reached this far.
thank you for everything. i love you today, tomorrow and forever.
im wishing for many more years for us! iloveyou honey!

lay with you frorever...

i know your sleeping, and i have to wait till tomorrow that you wake up
and talk to me again. another day passed. another night of missing you.. i wanna lay down with you, sleep with you, and you will hold me when we sleep together,i will cuddle with you, hug you, kiss you on your cheek while you’re still asleep, and play with your nose while im looking at you, and just lay my head on your chest and fall asleep with you. You’re the softest pillow,and the cuddliest teddy bear i cold ever have..when that happens, I can lay here with you forever,and forget the whole world around us..

The road is never staight.

Theres a curve called failure, a loop called confusion, speed bumps called friends, red lights called enemies, caution lights called family, flat tires called jobs, spares called determination, and an engine called perseverance.

But if you’re driving with me, theres no promise, no time, no destination.

-takeflight (book)

let's runaway!

"far from reality.. so far where i can only hear the beats of your heart and the sound of your breath."

i love this... :)

let's play together all night...

i want you here with me tonight....
come here please. i desperately need you..
I'LL BE WAITING.

cause you turn me on...

"Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love

The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back"

this is all i need...

There it goes again...

"that heavy feeling in your chest when you don’t feel any desire to speak or move. All you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can’t seem to connect to anyone or anything. If you had a choice you’d prefer to be numb, and not feel anything at all if it means the aching would stop. You have no concrete idea as to what to do or how to feel— all you know for sure is that you want to be okay. "

secret feeling tonight

“there will always be those kind of days, where all you want to do is stay in bed, let the world crash over
You like a giant wave, and just sleep it all off. You just want to pull back from everything, call in sick, when your just emotionally hurting. But the best thing you can do on those days is get up and work through it because it only makes you stronger.”
-random quote I found somewhere

I feel so bless having u knowing some one out is enjoying all d love I give n willing to love me too and that some one is you! -from my sweetest boyfriend ever! :)

forever.................

just browsing on my inbox and i suddenly read this lines in one of his emails...

"Me and you! are the most amazing couple in my world and I'm happy the way you are even if at times I get angry or sad but you have thought me a lot

So let's see our future together and leave the pass behind cause my future is you and only you.

I see my self been with you always no matter what it changes in our lifes cause our love it was mean to be forever."

i will sleep smiling tonight because of this.
i feel all the love. SUCH A SWEET LOVELY words from my man. :)
i love you so much!

Let's start it all over again :)

I am sorry from the bottom of my heart for my rude behavior last night.
It was completely my mistake.
At that moment all my senses were raging, I couldn't think rationally.

And after everything has been said and done,
we still end up together happy.
thank you for never ending love and your open arm forgiveness.
I've hurt you so many times and you never give up,
instead you help me realize my wrong doing and face life and not walk
from the problems.
you teach me to love and more to care for you, myself, and other people.


when i said to you today that..
"you don't deserve someone like me, i'm so mean"

and got the response from you saying...

"you are an amazing woman i've ever met in my life that's why i love you so much like never before!"

i'm speechless as i type all this,
and in each word i write down, I SMILE.

because today, you made me feel the luckiest girl living on earth
to have a boyfriend who love me as much as you do right now.
you did everything to save this relationship and you never let go
despite of all the hurt and pain i brought you.

THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

and i promise...

i promise to love you more
to care for your feelings
i promise to not get mad and hurt you for no reason at all
i promise to think about the consequences of my actions
and behavior and the effect of this to both of us.
i promise to think twice before i speak and do
something stupid.

i promise to change for the better.
I PROMISE to love you, to care for you, to respect you, to be happy with you
and to love you,
just love you, YOU and only you.

it breaks my heart just thinking of living with out you!
i love you so much!
im glad this is over. im glad we survive. and im glad to start a new beginning
and let our feeling blossoms into years and years full of love, TOGETHER :)

66 days to go!

and our celebration for our love will start! i cant wait! iloveyou!