Waiting would be worth it.

days are fast, and the closer we get to the day we'll be together again,
the more i'm missing you.
the more harder it is for me to miss you.
It’s impossible to understand the logic behind missing you.
I don’t know what it is that I am really missing
Is it the absence of you?
Or perhaps that unexplainable feeling at those every day conversations we had on the phone.
Those moments that we spend together before.

It is hard to be away to someone you love more than your self.
it's hard to keep going but it is harder to give up.
but with all the things you have said and done,
was already enough to assure me that no matter how far, no matter what,
you are somehow, in some way, here with me.

I miss you even during the seconds we talk. As soon as you pick up and say hello,
I start to miss you already.
I miss you at every breath that I take.
I love to think of you which sometimes
gives me a hard time, cause it makes me miss you more.

But I realize that thinking of you is the best thing to.
i realize that i don’t just want the thought of you.
I don't want to just think of you...

I want you. I want the real you.
I want the person I have been in love with for years and for months.
I want to be with you again.
Once again.

I miss you so much more than words can explain honey.
I want to know and feel again what your breath smells like,
what your hair feels like as i caress it while we kiss,
how the sides of your mouth move into that amazing smile
you give me that makes my day.
Your laughter, that makes my heart jump into happiness.

how your eyes are when I’m looking right at them
and not into a photograph, a picture, or pixels in my phone.
I want the real intense gaze I used to see from you.
I want to smell the scent on your neck as I hug and kiss you.

And most of all,
I want to hear you calling my name.
Or even hear you getting mad at me for every single stupid mistake I make.
I don’t care. I don’t mind.
I don’t want to hear your voice through a fucking phone,
or behind this little shitty headset.

This time, I want to hear your voice right through my ears.
I want to hear you talk and feel your breath on my skin as you tell me
How much you miss me. How much you love me.
And how much you waited for the day to come that we’ll be together again.
I want it real.

"I want to hear you resonate through the air the words i love you honey..."

And i know in the end, when that day comes..
All the wait will be more than worth it....

i love you honey.