NUMB

this is the most painful post i will ever put here.
I dont even know what to type and If i should
write down my thoughts here.
because i cant feel anything anymore.

Im already NUMB.

I dont know how am i gonna be able to
look back to my older post and remember those happy thoughts
and moment i have with you..

This is something i didn't wish for.
Its breaking me apart.

It hurts so bad to tell myself that..

"IT'S OVER"

I cant Let go

It's the worst feeling in the world to love & hate someone all at the same time.
And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same.
It’s funny but stupid how you want everything & nothing at the same time.

It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on,
& when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started.
When feelings come and go & you can’t decide what you want.

When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start.
When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther & farther away.

It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now and realize
that things are different & they may never be the same.

You tell yourself it’s not worth it,

but if it really didn’t matter,
you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

Im a loser

my heart is breaking into pieces.
every cell in my body is dying.
i'm starting to learn how to stop breathing.

should i post this?
and let me remember, how badly i felt.
how badly my heart has been broken.

im such a loser.
seriously. a loser..

ONE YEAR full of Love

"march, 24, 2010 12:02AM"

366 days
31,622,400 seconds
527,040 minutes
8784 hours
52 weeks


yes!! it's officially one year..

"i can still feel your kisses on the back of my neck."

soulmate

whatever our souls are made of..

HIS AND MINE ARE THE SAME..

♥♥♥
3 days more... I cant believe it's gonna be a year already..
and I'm so happy about it. really happy..

I love you.

2121 bente uno 2121

My special day as a human being in this world haha.

Looking back one year from now, same day as today.
I fell inlove with you. with your sweet thoughts about me and gesture.
I remember how I couldn't sleep that night
telling myself..

"what the heck! don't tell me I totally give in?!"

that day. that moment. when i step into the door and see you,
stand up, greet me happy birthday, get the cake from the fridge,
gave me the letter with the drawing..

"I was stun...."

My heart beats so fast without realizing it.
Your smile and that looks almost makes me melt..

And now, another year in my Life, though your not here with me.
You still complete my day.

"I think your the best gift I've ever got and expect from GOD.."

thank you thank you! you make me love you more
and hold on stronger.

I love you!!!

Waiting

"I will wait for you..
until I have no more reason to wait anymore..."

ur my true Love

To me, True love is the sweetest thing in Life. That's why were all either
in love or looking for Love..

Sometimes you have to work for it.
Especially when Life gets in the way---

But I believe True deep love is always WORTH FIGHTING FOR.

Im dying

jealousy is a piece of SHIT that kills every cell in my body..

incomplete

"talking to you is a part of my daily routine without it i feel incomplete.."

:(

22 days and counting..

No Im not counting down for my bday although it would be a few weeks
away from today..
But instead I cant wait for the day were gonna celebrate our love.

It's gonna be a year.
I cant wait.
Although were not together I dont know how were gonna make it special.

I'm loving you more..

Be with me.

I'm missing you so much tonight. Although we were able to talk, I dont
know but I have this eagerness to see you and be with you..

Please be with me. i love you.